Chocolate World

Song: California Dreamin' by The Mama's & The Papas-

This link is The Mama's & The Papa's on stage

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"You can be anything in your dreams," Julian (5) says. "While you're sleeping."

"You can be anything you dream, Jules," I say. "Awake."

It's something I believe 80 percent of the time.  When the dream seems to be coming true, I believe it.  When the doors are slamming, it's hard not to question.  Still, I try not to question.  Still, I try not to live on the underbelly of doubt but on the top of hopes spine.

I don't deliver my doubts to Julian.  His time is all ahead of him, his middle name is Wonder.

"NO you can't! Mama," he says, suddenly furious. "Only! When! You! Are! Sleeping!"

"Well, some dreams you can make up during the day," I explain,  "and if you work really hard and get some luck, those can come true."

"Because you're in a nap?" he asks. Curious now enough to be calm-ish.

"No, when you're awake during the day."

"Did you have dreams?" he asks.


Did I? Past tense.  I'm old in his eyes, years past dreaming.

"Yes," I say, looking at him, a living example of one of my dreams.  I think I can start digging up things in my life that will keep his hope alive, my hope alive.  "Um, I wanted to be on TV, I was.  I wanted to have three kids, I do.  I wanted to marry a loving beautiful man, your Daddy."

"Ugh!" he sighs,  he is having trouble putting on his blue sneakers, "But it takes SO long."

"Well, its not a magic trick," I say, waving my hands like a wand around his head.  "It's not like abracadabra bip it dee doo I have a dream make it come true!"

He doesn't seem like he's in the mood to laugh.

"It's taking TOO loooong," he says.  Pissed off again.  "You stunk at acting."

Thanks.

"What is your dream?" I ask.

"It's never going to happen," he says.

"What is it?" I ask.

I'm thinking if its the NBA, his gene pool may rule him out.

"I want the whole world to be made of M&M's."

Hmm.

"Maybe start by making a tree out of M&M's and go from there," I suggest.

"NO!" he says.  Waving his hands in a big circle, "I want the whole world!"

Well, didn't we all.

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Happy Memorial Day Weekend! Hope everyone enjoys lots of fun family time and are able to eliminate stress by sticking to healthy boundaries- instead of drinking, eating or drugging themselves into a coma;)

**Also I loved featuring Lori King, marathon swimmer last week and since have recognized that there are so many super fly women in my life.  (and that I'm totally sick of talking about myself:) So, once a month I'm going to feature a SpunkerFly Woman of the Month.  On deck, Dr. Christine Mullen,  Reproductive Endocrinologist at LIJ (surgeon and infertility specialist), Kathryn "Katie" Moffet Barbatsuly, owner and founder of Moffet Home and a couple of others I haven't had a chance to ask yet, (been busy making stairs and banisters out of M&M's;)).